I went to the doctor and she told me I was just too stressed out. Am always so stupid to know if am already stressed out unless I get sick.
I tried to avoid stressors as much as possible but sometimes I can’t avoid to be stressed out coz of the people around me who frustrates me. Maybe, I always expect too much from a person it is because for me I can do things easily on my own so why are things hard for them.
I cried buckets and buckets of tears. I even didn’t get shy to show to other people what I really feel and what’s really in my head. I poured out everything… the thing which I seldom used to do unless am really pushed to my anger. My officemate even told me am “Bato”… like I don’t feel anything. But am not, am not just used to talk about my feelings… the reason why I opted to put my feelings into a journal like this… a place where I can voice out what I feel.
Probably, the hardest to accept about a person is to accept the things that are completely unknown to you or completely a character that is not in your own vocabulary. I admit sometimes am too harsh to say things, sometimes too direct but for me I rather say the word than be a liar. For me lying is completely like being a traitor, its like the person who lied to you is just throwing the trust that you gave. And it really hurts…
To the person who saw me cried but just listened to all my words, thank you and sorry if I disturbed you but you were of great help. You accommodated me when am in my worst and pitiful situation.
To the person who is continuously lying and just being a hypocrite all the time just to save yourself from shame or protect your image or your name, sometimes you have to get out of that shell, don’t play safe all the time, you are hurting people around you for being one. Mahirap mabuhay kung iisipin natin lagi ay ang sasabihin ng ibang tao, laging may kinakatakutan.
